Sadness

As I sit here by myself, all alone
And I slowly start to unwind
I hear the nagging sounds of doubt
Pecking at the entrance of my mind

Why do I want to want to crawl back in my shell
Where once again I feel safe and secure
I know I don’t want to cause you pain
Or cause you heartache to endure

I wish I could make you understand
That I know what it means to grieve
And I would rather die than cause
Your heart to bleed like a sieve

I could look the whole world o’er
And I know that I would never find
A finer specimen of a person
Who’s so gentle and so kind.

Sherry
11-3-2009
10:37pm

Sometimes I think about my life and wonder if I have made a difference. Have I touched someone’s life? What kind of legacy am I leaving behind me? As for the world’s riches, I don’t have a lot, but I would like to think that I am at least rich when it comes to giving love and helping others.

You know giving is not just the giving of money, although money is nice. I remember how nice it felt to be able to make two little girl’s Christmas last year. I had some extra money and I overheard the parents talking about their Christmas and how the the two girls were only going to get two gifts apiece and that was from a local organization. I just knew that I had to let go of it and let those little girls know that mommy and daddy had not forgotten them.

It is taking the time and giving a little of yourself. A “light-the-sky-up” smile, kind word, or just loaning your ears and shoulders for someone. How hard is it for us to have a kind word to say to others? Words, can either lift you up or they can drag you down to the lowest of depths of hell. I know, I have been there and been the abuser as well.. How many times have I passed someone by and a simple hello and smile would have made them feel as if they were worth something?

And a smile, seems like hardly nothing, just a lifting up of the corners of your mouth. But when given from the heart, can light up the darkest of nights. So let loose and give one away. You may be surprised at what you get in return.

While I know that I am not perfect, I do strive to become a better person each day. It is a daily thing for me, not just a one time practice. And some days are harder than others. But a word of encouragement here, and an heartfelt smile there is all it takes to make someone’s world a little brighter. I hope that it can be said of me that I was a carrier of light and not someone who goes about distinguishing the light.

Originally posted on Matchdoctor on 12/1/2008 2:44:23 PM

I look at you and wonder
How I was ever intimate with you
A total stranger staring at me
After years of being man and wife

A child was born out of this love
Finally grown with children of her own
Then you decided it was over
Time for you to move on

Divorce, that horrible ugly word
Now comes between the two of us
Erecting a huge wall of pain
Everything lost that was gained

Time moves on and hearts will heal
But leaves the heart skeptical
Full of scars and afraid
To ever love that way again.

sc11/08

Come run through the fields of life with me
And let us enjoy each adventure together
We may never pass this way again
So let’s make this moment last

sc11/2008

How can I be a princess
If I do not have a crown
And how can I be perfect
When my many flaws abound

I wish I could see through your eyes
And see what er’ it is you see
For every time I pass the mirror
I see nothing pretty about me

I know I have a loving heart
And I choose to love all men
Perhaps this is what you see
That comes from deep within

Whatever the rhyme or reason
You fell in love with me
I will do my best to cherish it
Through out eternity

Sherry
12/11/08

What can I give this King of Glory
Who did so much for me?
By coming to this world below
In such humility.

sc 12/12/2008

Lay down gently beside me
Let me see the love in your eyes
While you softly whisper to me
There’ll be no more good byes

Sherry
12/22/2008

I would give anything
If I could let you see
How much it is you mean
To my heart and me

Don’t you know I try
To show you how I feel
But for some reason
My love is not as real

I love with all that’s in me
Yet somehow you don’t understand
That I can give no more to you
Than I have right now, on hand

Sherry
12/22/2008

If humans could be angels
Then surely I know some
Like Suthrn_belle for example
And summerbreeze is one

Sherry
12/29/2008

Happy New Year everyone
As the old year now is done
Perhaps this year will be the best
Perfect more than all the rest
Yesterdays are in the past

New Year is here at last
Everyone I pray is blessed
Wishing you peace and rest

Yearning for the coming year
Especially nice without fear
Always wishing your dreams come true
Rejoicing when God blesses you

Sherry
12/31/2008